عبده مرقص عبد الملاك يكتب إليها

الى التي أحببتها, كما أحببت الكثيرات غيرها
ووجدت أن كلهن سواء, كل واحدة لها بصمتها
ولكن
ًكلهن حفرن أخاديدا
لن يقوى الزمان على محوها
الي من عشت معها و بها
الأمل و الألم
و كل المتناقضات
إليك
الي
……………………….
what a day
Was it a dream?
Was it a nightmare?
No doubt, I loved you and I still love you
As I loved a lot before you and lived with them my life
They left me because that is life, I appreciated them
Because I have never known hatred,
But to tell the truth, though we lived happy times and sad times
We enjoyed living together,
Yet, I felt unsafe with you,
Before you appeared in my life,
I had had the feeling of scaring of you,
I expected that you would be like the others
But you were different, I met you with hope that I would leave you before you leave me.
However you to be, I have never thought that you would do more than others,
I tried to adapt living with you, accepting your moodiness,
I wished to leave you before of thinking of leaving me,
But ,you were cunning as you used to be with me,
I knew that you have booked your departure ticket in the following days,
I could not imagine that, nor that you would surprise me,
You could easily shoot in the core,
And leave deep scars that can never been healed ,
The wounds are bleeding heavily ,
No medicine nor time would cure then
Yet I’m still breath, hoping that I leave you before you do,
As I do not want a new one in my life .
I ,m astonished none of you left me without a scar
I remember you all ,one by one, minute ,by minute .
I think the game is over ,
I’ll try to leave you before you leave me,
And if I could not ,I would not stay for another love
Abdu Morkos Abd el malak
22/12/2015
هذه الرسالة كانت لواحدة من اللائى احببتهن
و ها انا اعيد كتابتها اليك
عبده مرقص عبد الملاك